I was in the midst of posting a blog full of angst and bitterness. But I erased it. I was feeling a little poopy and sad today. Just feeling like nothing is moving. So many people have asked us lately “Have you heard anything??” and I WANT you to ask us that- don’t get me wrong, I just HATE saying “I don’t know anything”. It would be so much better if I knew what to tell you. Even if we had to wait longer, say into next year, I at least could tell you “It’s going to be Spring of next year” but I can’t say that. I just say to you, “well it could be today, it could be tomorrow, it could be spring of next year!” we just don’t know anything!
On Friday I sent our case manager an e-mail just to confirm that she received the new updated documents (she had) and she threw in a little additional information and since inquiring minds want to know, I present that information to you now for your reading pleasure:
1- We are currently number 2 in line waiting for a “young child” in Pskov. (That is better news than I anticipated, I MEAN SECOND PLACE IS ONLY ONE PLACE AWAY FROM 1ST PLACE!) She said she would let us know when we were #1 on the list.
2- The two families that received referrals from Pskov before us waited 8 months and 4 months for their children. We’ve already been waiting 1 month…..
3- The agency is hoping to receive some more referrals from our region in mid-late September. That means if there is one referral in September, then we would be number 1. If they receive two referrals, then, well, we would be getting a referral.
I know this information is extremely vague and surrounded by a lot of “if’s”. But I think the main thing is to keep hope alive and know that it WILL happen. Everyone’s case is so different, it’s impossible to pinpoint anything exact. Our agency is doing the best they can to give us a time frame, they have no way of knowing either. We want to be excited and think “we could be traveling to Russia in the fall” but in the back of my mind I always think “That's too fast! They won’t call until we’ve given up hope.” Fall would be a miracle. Y’all just keep praying that we are the exception to the rule, since God is in the miracle business, let’s just keep his business alive and well.
On my way home, I passed a church marquee that read “Thank God in advance for His blessings” Tonight, please join with me in giving thanks for bringing Baby Deetz home in His perfect timing. We are praying for a miracle!